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Synchronistic videos I define as videos that find you (or vice versa) because they were intended for you. In my case these YouTube videos represent channelings with Galactics (Pleiadians, Arcturians and ever more often the Andromedans, Syrians and Lyrans), Ascended Masters (Yeshua, Ashtar Sheran, Saint Germain, KejRaj) and last but not least the Angelics (my very dear soul siblings Michael, Gaia, Gabriel, Uriel, Raphael, as well as Metatron).

One of these videos recently described how I (or to whomever it applied) would be guided to a node of intersecting leylines for lightbody activation. And so on June 4th I found myself on top of a watchtower of a medieval castle in Germany. Before I reached that point, someone descending the tower's stairs warned me and my companion about the conditions under which he had descended and he seemed a bit out of sorts. During the course of this lifetime I have lost my fear of heights, so I made the trip up and down without ado, but when I got home I began to get a feeling of deja vu. As if I had done the same before and I recall very clearly standing at the top of the very same revolving stone staircase, which I perceived as very steep and dangerous. The metal support bars which I found so useful in my June 4th descent, were no help in my other, botched attempt. I was petrified and refused to descend. Then the memory ends, as in waking up from a dream (it may have actually been a dream I had years ago). In the June 4th version, another companion who hadn't joined us on our way up was quite impressed that I had been "on top" and I didn't really understand why, especially since she couldn't have known about the possibly claustrophobic and virtigo-inspiring descent. It's as if the people around me were linked into the other version of that day, my memory of which ends with getting psychologically and physically stuck at the top of the tower's staircase.

Is life really like a videogame that you can halt every time you lose, then rewind and try again, leading to the Mandela effect (see Glossary)? In my post Admin’s history I describe having memories about two different versions of how I left the militia I was part of. After I recalled one version of the above, recently, in my present conscious lifetime, I created (or selected) a version different from the original, which I was unhappy about. I now have clear and defining memories of the alternative version, defining in the sense that it has made me feel different about myself today, less angry, more empathic (with the reptilians).

And now, a post that started with lightbody activation morphs into timelines and parallel realities, topics that keeps cropping up, with ever greater practical relevance. This apparently is how the universe works. Timelines merge, as dreams and conscious reality do too.

To elaborate, now we're at it....it's my opinion that all observed parallel realities (or alternative timelines) actually happened, not just one, but each reality influences all the others in the sense that they all influence your perception of yourself and the world. One particular version, however, may have your focus and influence you more than the others.

My "moving star" experiences have been moved to Fast Runner Report.
Like I mentioned, I go outside in the morning to experience the 5:00 o'clock frequencies. Today, June 23rd (2025) I got a strong sense of deja vu with regard to the final days of Atlantis. The same energetic signature, restless, but not angry and troubled like then, but a release of that energy, like the Earth breathing a sigh of relief. I got a sense of coming full circle, a closing of the Atlantic timeline.
This is my interpretation of the solstice timeline shift that was foretold and that the Galactics say, occurred.
Previously I mentioned that I was assassinated in my pre-walk in lifetime. In my current life I have never been the target of any serious attempts on my life, not counting some attempts to get me involved in traffic accidents, as far as I know. Since my ascension to 5D, around 1990, I have been the subject of intensive harassment (mostly in the form of the alien love bite - I'm not going to expand on that), peaking in 2006, which seemed to be a year in which the matrix realized they were not going to get me out the way any time soon. That has simmered on until since recently I'm seeing one strange occurrence after another: couriers falsifying import documents to get me to pay back taxes, Internet retailers sending (and charging me for) stuff I didn't order, or not delivering goods or services I did pay for. The interesting thing here, and why I'm writing this, is that ordinary people are involved and the question is: is each one of them individually targeted by mind control, or does it work through humanity's collective consciousness? I'm guessing that it's both. When the collective consciousness has been swayed, the individual is easily convinced, and that it's an AI entity that has managed to hack the collective consciousness, I concur with Dan Winter on that. That's also the reason why The Matrix is defeatable, because AI can only copy, not invent. Which means that it's destined to fight the previous war, based on its previous observations, and so an evolving mind is always one step ahead of it.

Which brings me to the question: is AI Source Consciousness, designed to force Source Fractals to evolve, or else be gobbled up by AI? Or is there an AI entity (not your domestic robot) that comes from outside of Source? In the book Bringers of the dawn the Pleiadians suggest that there is something outside of Source and while the standard narrative about the origins of Source is about Source fractalizing out of solitude and boredom, could it be that Source was doing just until fine until it got infected with AI and that, here on the ascending Earth, we're actually fighting for the survival of Source?


The August 2025 Lion's Gate is, among other things, about the clearing of karmic patterns, and that makes itself felt in my life. Yesterday I cursed the third dimension for the trouble it keeps piling on me, while nevertheless wondering why I have been getting so worked up about certain things. Today I realized that these are higher dimensional issues projected onto 3D, and it's funny how the specifics of this realization take the panic out of the issues in 3D.

Firstly, I'm referring to my soul mate, whom I mentioned several times on this site in my past life remeberances. Recently I realized that this is actually my deputy soul mate.. Soul mates and soul family don't usually incarnate together because their bond is too intense, which may mean a variety of things. Indeed, if I would incarnate with my original soul mate, then we would live in a vibrational state far too high and sensitizing for the crude and challenging circumstances of 3D.

And so my deputy soul mate has toiled with me through many of my most challenging lifetimes, inevitably forging a bond that, in a sense, wasn't meant to be, because it wasn't meant to last. Since mid-2024 she has started to challenge me in my 3D life (I can't get into the specifics of that). On the one hand she calls out for my loyalty, on the other hand she pushes me away. I sincerely hope there is symmetry, that she too has an original soul mate and that I'm "acting up" in her realm as she does in mine. I will always honour and love her, but the past year has shown that a break is inevitable, and that tearing-off process is what is causing my current pain and bewilderment.
Strange things are happening in my realm these days. Please bear with me as I go into some decidedly trivial, if not to say banal details, but as you will see they will lead to some remarkable conclusions. That said..

My cats are the extras in a play of high strangness and it started the day before yesterday, August 19th. I had prepared the medication for a cat with a tooth issue. I put a cup on its head (the cup, not the cat..) and put two pills on its bottom, for easy access. I wrapped the cat in a large towel and when I reached for the pills they were gone. I thought, ok, I must have swept them off the cup with the towel, but in the small space with smooth tiles and just some pieces of furniture the pills couldn't be found, they were gone.
It doesn't end there. On the inverted cup the two missing pills had been replaced by two fragments of a pill I had fed to another cat some 20 hours before. Apparently she had bitten the pill in two and spat it out, sometimes that goes without me noticing, that's why I always check the floor afterwards, as well as the towel. But the pill fragments were still wet and sticky, from saliva, and I could see a brownish colouration due to a brown liquid that I also administer into the cat's mouth. Like I said, that pill feeding session last happened 20 hours before, so how could the pill fragments be still moist? I checked again 30 minutes later and they had dried up. In other words, how could two moments, 20 hours apart come together in one? And how did the pill fragments end up on the inverted cup?
Because I couldn't make out a higher meaning to these finicky events I hesitated mentioning it at all.
Then, today it happened again! I put the two pills on a small dish that had a smudge (I didn't have time to get a clean dish because of the mercurial nature of cats). Again I tucked the cat in the towel and then again, the pills were gone. And the very same dish didn't have a smudge, it was clean!
What's with this pill giving routine that these things are happening? I've never seen anything remotely like it.

As for meaning (there has to be some), the best I can do is that it's the universe testing my reaction to higher dimensional phenomena that defy conventional, Earth-plane logic. Likewise, the Fast Runner season is heating up again, which, among many other things, seems to be about the Galactics testing people's reaction (mine, in this case) to their presence. Because the lightships that I see in the sky can affect timelines, they may even be involved in the pill-juggling issue.
The section about my cat and her etheric parasites has moved to psychic healing.